Oh, i said i was taking the Advance Theory test for driving today right?
I passed! YAY!
I think i would have failed, but i went back to check the answers i selected again, and changed quite a bit. Thank God i did that.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Feast and Fun!
Poor Charmaine waited for ma at least an hour tonight. Sorry girl!
To ask for her forgiveness, we went to Billy Bombers ( my treat), and we shared our meal but it was still too much!!
And then we went for Neo Prints! Hmm...i don't believe we've taken one before...
Example of one of the pics :
And another one :
Fun! I like hanging out with Charmaine. Sorta forgot what it was like, since we hardly go out. I never feel like i have to worry about how she feels or if my expression (sad, sian, annoyed) bothers her. I can be myself, and be honest and not have to worry about being nice all the time.
To ask for her forgiveness, we went to Billy Bombers ( my treat), and we shared our meal but it was still too much!!
And then we went for Neo Prints! Hmm...i don't believe we've taken one before...
Example of one of the pics :
And another one :
Fun! I like hanging out with Charmaine. Sorta forgot what it was like, since we hardly go out. I never feel like i have to worry about how she feels or if my expression (sad, sian, annoyed) bothers her. I can be myself, and be honest and not have to worry about being nice all the time.
Monday, January 29, 2007
Advanced Theory!
Tomorrow at around 11.20 am, my life would change. Hopefully in a good way. But technically, life changes every second, because life is a constant state of motion. In any case, i hope i pass.
I've failed once before with the advanced theory test. I gotta pass this time! Imagine going all the way down again to take it...sigh.
Alright, the results will be announced tmr! ( Like anyone bothers...)
I've failed once before with the advanced theory test. I gotta pass this time! Imagine going all the way down again to take it...sigh.
Alright, the results will be announced tmr! ( Like anyone bothers...)
Out with Dad
Today i went out with my dad to Sim Lim. I guess, i was free in the afternoon, and my dad wanted to go there. So we went and we got a monitor for the PC outside.
The outing just made me think about many issues.
Work
Money ( wondering if i'll ever save enough)
Not spending as much time with Dad
Fear
I don't think i've really spent any time with my dad. The times spent with him are probably times when we go meet mum for breakfast after her night shift, or dinner after her work/his work. Or when i come back from work, and maybe had a hard day, and complain to him from the toliet as i shower, while he watches tv outside. It's just been very long since i even went out with him.
Also, today i felt sorta lost. I felt like i should go some place where it's quiet, just to think, but i had no one to go with. There were people i smsed, and some i considered asking, but figured they most probably would be out with their bfs. Then, on the way home, my dad said to me .
" When i woke up i thought to myself, your mum went off for work, already, and you probably went for church, so i'm all alone at home. Then i saw you coming in to use the toilet, and i thought, oh, so i'm not alone at home."
I understand how my dad feels.. I mean, maybe we don't feel the same way, but it's under the same catergory of loneliness. My dad probably felt that way every Sunday, or any other day when he wakes up to go to work, perhaps at a later shift time, and there's no one around. Just for one day i'm home on a weekend, and i'm trying to find ways to get out of the house, just so i can go out and not FEEL like i'm not doing anything, or alone.
And then he thanked me for spending the day with him. That's ridiculous! Since when do parents need to thank their children for spending time with them?
Right now, work and money is on my mind, i just want to be able to save enough so that they can stop working soon, and spend some time together. That's another thing i realised. Work really takes up A LOT of time from relationships. 9-6 pm is the average time one spends at work, and then what? Dinner at 7, Perhaps at 9 pm you head home get ready, and then it's time for bed at 11pm? Or perhaps you spend another hour or two infront of the TV. That's like 2-3 hours of interaction with the family. If you take away that time, and spend it with friends, or even a boyfriend/girlfriend, then there's no time at all you can spend with your family.
I want time. I want money too. But i don't think i can get both. Unless i win the lottery.
The outing just made me think about many issues.
Work
Money ( wondering if i'll ever save enough)
Not spending as much time with Dad
Fear
I don't think i've really spent any time with my dad. The times spent with him are probably times when we go meet mum for breakfast after her night shift, or dinner after her work/his work. Or when i come back from work, and maybe had a hard day, and complain to him from the toliet as i shower, while he watches tv outside. It's just been very long since i even went out with him.
Also, today i felt sorta lost. I felt like i should go some place where it's quiet, just to think, but i had no one to go with. There were people i smsed, and some i considered asking, but figured they most probably would be out with their bfs. Then, on the way home, my dad said to me .
" When i woke up i thought to myself, your mum went off for work, already, and you probably went for church, so i'm all alone at home. Then i saw you coming in to use the toilet, and i thought, oh, so i'm not alone at home."
I understand how my dad feels.. I mean, maybe we don't feel the same way, but it's under the same catergory of loneliness. My dad probably felt that way every Sunday, or any other day when he wakes up to go to work, perhaps at a later shift time, and there's no one around. Just for one day i'm home on a weekend, and i'm trying to find ways to get out of the house, just so i can go out and not FEEL like i'm not doing anything, or alone.
And then he thanked me for spending the day with him. That's ridiculous! Since when do parents need to thank their children for spending time with them?
Right now, work and money is on my mind, i just want to be able to save enough so that they can stop working soon, and spend some time together. That's another thing i realised. Work really takes up A LOT of time from relationships. 9-6 pm is the average time one spends at work, and then what? Dinner at 7, Perhaps at 9 pm you head home get ready, and then it's time for bed at 11pm? Or perhaps you spend another hour or two infront of the TV. That's like 2-3 hours of interaction with the family. If you take away that time, and spend it with friends, or even a boyfriend/girlfriend, then there's no time at all you can spend with your family.
I want time. I want money too. But i don't think i can get both. Unless i win the lottery.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Trusting.
What is your idea of God? I think it's one thing hearing what's being preached, and another finding out on your own. Perhaps God speaks to each of us individually because we are after all very complex. I do not believe that God created a bunch of robots to do what He wants for the sake of that. It has alot to do with doing what God wants, because we want to do that. So unless there is a heart change, i don't think anything we do is what God would want either.
I've learnt recently that it is important to have a constant conversation with God. I think the easy way out usually would be to just stop talking to God ; stop asking Him for help, stop praying. I think most people feel that it is very laborious and a 'religious' thing to do. But it isn't that way really. It's like the best friend you talk to , or keep in touch with, or the colleague at work you're close with. It's not so much laborious but really more of a comfort. I think conversation with God does not have to be just prayer, or giving praises. It also involves telling him your worries, or just thinking and sharing thoughts with Him. You know, there is no one else in the world that can understand you totally for the choices you make and why you would see things a certain way. It is tiring to explain your frustrations to people at times, and sometimes all you want is someone to listen, and not give solutions at all. So i'm glad that God's that way, that He listens when you need peace and quiet, and the solutions always come at the right time.
Ok, why am i talking about this? I'm really wondering about trust in God. Ed's away for another week, and i'm putting my trust in God that he will protect Ed on the trip. I'm always the 'worst-case-scenario' girl and so thoughts of unpleasant outcomes cross my mind often enough. Perhaps i'm not trusting God? But trusting God does not mean that it is a guarantee that Ed will be safe. Trusting God means that you trust that God does what's best, and that whatever outcome it is, God will give you the strength to deal with it. That is what's kind of hard for me right now, because i would rather go with the guarantee that Ed WILL be safe. Right now i'll go with the next best option, which is to pray about it.
Can't wait for Ed to get back.
I've learnt recently that it is important to have a constant conversation with God. I think the easy way out usually would be to just stop talking to God ; stop asking Him for help, stop praying. I think most people feel that it is very laborious and a 'religious' thing to do. But it isn't that way really. It's like the best friend you talk to , or keep in touch with, or the colleague at work you're close with. It's not so much laborious but really more of a comfort. I think conversation with God does not have to be just prayer, or giving praises. It also involves telling him your worries, or just thinking and sharing thoughts with Him. You know, there is no one else in the world that can understand you totally for the choices you make and why you would see things a certain way. It is tiring to explain your frustrations to people at times, and sometimes all you want is someone to listen, and not give solutions at all. So i'm glad that God's that way, that He listens when you need peace and quiet, and the solutions always come at the right time.
Ok, why am i talking about this? I'm really wondering about trust in God. Ed's away for another week, and i'm putting my trust in God that he will protect Ed on the trip. I'm always the 'worst-case-scenario' girl and so thoughts of unpleasant outcomes cross my mind often enough. Perhaps i'm not trusting God? But trusting God does not mean that it is a guarantee that Ed will be safe. Trusting God means that you trust that God does what's best, and that whatever outcome it is, God will give you the strength to deal with it. That is what's kind of hard for me right now, because i would rather go with the guarantee that Ed WILL be safe. Right now i'll go with the next best option, which is to pray about it.
Can't wait for Ed to get back.
Monday, January 15, 2007
It's a softie!
This is a soya bean cake they sold at a bakery. Been seeing those things lately and decided to try one out. It's O-K only.
Friday, January 12, 2007
What matters.
I have good parents. I think they're really cool in the sense that they respect me and my siblings, and in so many ways, when i see friends around me who can't talk to their parents about problems they have, i feel thankful for having sane, cooler parents. I miss my brothers (they're in US) and i respect them both because i love them both. I think respect comes from love, and i respect my parents a lot, that i would rather not say/ask certain things, because i don't want to hurt them because i love them. I don't care what anyone says about the choices i make, and why i make them. The same reason why i choose to love who i want, and wear the clothes i like, and eat the food i love, because i have some respect for myself and the choices i make are mine.
My parents matter to me.
My family matters to me.
My brothers matter to me.
My boyfriend matters to me.
My good (& rare) friends matter to me.
My parents matter to me.
My family matters to me.
My brothers matter to me.
My boyfriend matters to me.
My good (& rare) friends matter to me.
Status Symbols
Read a 1999 issue of Colors Magazine. The theme of the magazine is Status Symbols, and here is an extract of it.
Real 'status' never consists of what is , but only and exclusively of what seems- to possess more, to present yourself in a certain way, in order to be recognized. The pope in plain clothes is no longer the pope.
In this permanent simulation of reality, where everybody wants to seem to be something they are not, it is still goods that dictate laws. It is only what we consume that makes the difference between classes, and even within the same class. The search for diversity is simply a race to possess the same objects in order to feel equal , or different objects in order to keep others at a distance. But it is always the law of supply and demand that directs us to status symbols. The pope robbed of the ring and the other symbols of his status, would no longer be recognized. He would be abandoned, lonely and anonymous, to his destiny as a human.
Real 'status' never consists of what is , but only and exclusively of what seems- to possess more, to present yourself in a certain way, in order to be recognized. The pope in plain clothes is no longer the pope.
In this permanent simulation of reality, where everybody wants to seem to be something they are not, it is still goods that dictate laws. It is only what we consume that makes the difference between classes, and even within the same class. The search for diversity is simply a race to possess the same objects in order to feel equal , or different objects in order to keep others at a distance. But it is always the law of supply and demand that directs us to status symbols. The pope robbed of the ring and the other symbols of his status, would no longer be recognized. He would be abandoned, lonely and anonymous, to his destiny as a human.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Names Names
I watched Gladiator yesterday and it's such a moving show. So, i decided to find a Roman name for the fun of it.
And
Also, this is a good link for script writers who want to generate character names. Happened to stumble upon it.
http://www.kleimo.com/random/name.cfm
My Roman name is Aemilia Marcellina.
Take The Roman Name Generator today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.
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My japanese name is 猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) ?? Aiko (child of the morning sun).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.
Also, this is a good link for script writers who want to generate character names. Happened to stumble upon it.
http://www.kleimo.com/random/name.cfm
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Sigh.
Hai.
That's all i feel right now. A big SIGH. I hope things are not going back to the way it used to be , because i didn't like it then. And all of a sudden, i wish i could fly away. But i can't take leave. ARGH.
That's all i feel right now. A big SIGH. I hope things are not going back to the way it used to be , because i didn't like it then. And all of a sudden, i wish i could fly away. But i can't take leave. ARGH.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Song in my Head
Oh no. A song is stuck in my head. It's The Yeah Yeah Yeah Song.
If you could blow up the world
with the flick of a switch
Would you do it?
(Yeah x14)
If you could make everybody poor
just so you could be rich
Would you do it?
(Yeah x14)
If you could watch everybody work
while you just lay on your back
Would you do it?
(Yeah x14)
If you could take all the love
without giving any back
Would you do it?
(Yeah x14)
And so we cannot know ourselves
or what we'd really do...
With all your power
With all your power
With all your power
What would you do?
If you could make your own money
and then give it to everybody
Would you do it?
(No x14)
If you knew all the answers
and could give it to the masses
Would you do it?
No No No No No No Are you crazy?
It's a very dangerous thing
to do exactly what you want...
Because you cannot know yourself
or what you'd really do...
With all your power
With all your power
With all your power
What would you do?
If you could blow up the world
with the flick of a switch
Would you do it?
(Yeah x14)
If you could make everybody poor
just so you could be rich
Would you do it?
(Yeah x14)
If you could watch everybody work
while you just lay on your back
Would you do it?
(Yeah x14)
If you could take all the love
without giving any back
Would you do it?
(Yeah x14)
And so we cannot know ourselves
or what we'd really do...
With all your power
With all your power
With all your power
What would you do?
If you could make your own money
and then give it to everybody
Would you do it?
(No x14)
If you knew all the answers
and could give it to the masses
Would you do it?
No No No No No No Are you crazy?
It's a very dangerous thing
to do exactly what you want...
Because you cannot know yourself
or what you'd really do...
With all your power
With all your power
With all your power
What would you do?
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
It's a New Year.
I'm sure most people had a long weekend. I know i did, and i'm very thankful for it. I think the week of Christmas to the New Year has been the best holiday period ever. I was able to spend it with the people who are important to me, and much time with Ed too. It's amazing this period of time, and i had hoped that the last few days of the long weekend, would be as long as i can drag it. Today's the last day of the holidays for now, and i feel a little sad about it. Tomorrow it's back to work, and i'm sure everyone's sian about it. But not to worry! Let's not see the new year as a super boring routine of work again, but it's 2007! Let's start the year with a new found hope of a better everything. Like, better jobs ahead, money, health, joy,etc. Also i was on the way back and was thinking about situations, and you know, i wish and want for every wonderful single person know, that they find love this year. And that everyone will be happy. People should be happy! A dose of happy for the whole world!
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