I blew my top just a while ago trying to figure out why my airport seems to indicate i'm connected but i can't surf. It's happened a few times before and now it's happened again. I gripe, complain , but i couldn't get answers. So as i was trying to go at it one more time, i finally snapped and voice breaking on the verge of tears i vented how i can't solve it and i helped everyone, but no one could help me.
Both my brother and my dad were there at the moment and they both stood up, stunned at how i had reacted. I guess anyone would be if they had seen my tyrate.
Now it's probably that time of the month, so part of the reason for my sudden outburst i can can be forgiven, but it think it was also that split second when the thought entered my head that i'm really unhappy by the amount of work i have to do at work recently. I think having an undefined jobscope is the best way to beat down the spirit of an employee. You see, because i know more stuff, it seems that it is an unwritten rule that i have to solve every problem that happens in the office. I am my company's 'IT Technician' and 'Handy Man', part-time 'Receptionist', 'Photographer', 'Assistant Teacher', all that on top of my fancy-title-that-makes-me-throw-up-in-my-mouth-job of a Business Development Manager. You should see my job description while i was compiling my company handbook (oh i forgot to mention i do design and layout as well). To sum up what 1/3 page of what i do in one line it is ' A Business Development Manager does everything.' or how about this other line for a more apt description : You are in charge of doing everything and anything that i(boss) tell you to do without complaint because i'm really hiring you and squeezing you for every single cent i'm paying you because technically, i don't need someone of your job title because it's not like we are expanding like our other competitors conquering Singapore in different regions. So, i might as well make full use of you. Oh, and don't forget we need new computers for the teachers to use, for the children to us, please do that too since you are are the IT department, but oh, you don't need a laptop do you? I mean you can use your own personal one right? As well as your own software that came with your own laptop at your own expense? Oh, and it's ok to use your own mobile phone for company calls right? I mean, it's not like there's alot of calls to make ALL the time, just maybe when we are expanding and relocating, which is every year so far. Oh and don't worry you have your own email account, that has a limit of 10M. It's ok, you're a Business Manager you don't need an unlimited account. Besides if you do, you can always go set up another one on GMAIL if the company one get's full. Did i mention that your health benefits is $10 claim per receipt? Aren't we the BEST?
I'm so sick of this shit. So pardon my SUDDEN OUTBURSTS OF ANGER and SNAPPING because i can't control it. I'm usually nicer when i'm not at work.