My brother said that its ok to not be happy, but one shouldn't be sad because when you feel sad, the body releases a chemical that keeps belly fat.
Man, i must have been feeling sad for a while.
Today, i felt that way especially and angry the moment i walked out of office. I had waited '2 mins' for a friend cause she told me too, only to figure out that she was waiting for her husband to pick her up at the office. I felt pissed cause i felt like i was being taken for granted as usual. Since when did i become 'standby' girl? I'm like the last person anyone wants to meet. I guess everyone else has their own lives to live, and i really have none. Maybe i should just buy myself an oven and bake. Or take part in some course.
And then i got more pissed cause i thought of how i don't see Ed as often as i like. I see everyone else being able to meet their boyfriends, husband, and i'm alone most of the time. I shouldn't be mad cause it's WORK right? And when it's freelance, thats the way it is.
It didn't help that i had this really bad neck/headache at the base of my head from not sleeping well.
Well, at least i got one thing done. I booked the trip! I'm really nervous about it cause i read reviews about the hotel, and i'm hoping it's going to be alright. I hope i didn't get fleeced, but the guy that served me seemed really sincere and nice about it. Now i just want to pray that God helps me get almost all the work done. That same FRIEND of mine said she was going to help me, but she really just wasted my time bringing all my heavy files down and hardly getting any work done. I'm never going to listen to her again. I think i'm just too nice or STUPID. Don't know why i even forgive people so much when they're just going to make use of me as usual. On my way home i was thinking , why i planned my life around everyone else. That's the stupidest thing to do. If that's what love for the people around me does, then LOVE is stupid.
I wish for once , i was priority.